M e m o r i e s, < 3

I remember the days where everyone was so calm. Everyone had their high standards and planned on keeping them. Now, you look at everything you once believed in and realized you shot it down to hell. Drugs and alcohol used to never be around in this safe town, the town where everything is perfect and under control. This is a city that's supposed to be a place for lots of babies, and a giant family. This isn't the place for danger for drugs, for anything illegal to ever be done. You realize, even when you wouldn't suspect it, that there are people around you doing all sorts of shit. You realize they're smoking weed, they're drinking underage, they're running off to secret places to do only god knows what. You realize you've fucked up your life and you can't turn back. It's hard to find people with the same wants and need that you are feeling. You can't figure out whether or not you can just turn your back on the people you give a shit about and try to move on. The world has changed from the 70's or even the 90's. It's crazy to think that all I wanted by the time I was at this age was my first kiss. And I look back at my history and I've had my fair share of 'first kisses.' I just never would have pictured myself in the life I'm living today. I wouldn't have pictured that I would be surrounded by the people that are in my life at this very point. I love them all, but sometimes I wonder if they're the best thing for me. I don't know if I can just walk away though..